Games!So, No Man's Sky came out a few days ago.
It's.. interesting. It definitely was overhyped. It runs well enough on my PC, enough so to stream and play it. The gameplay is very repetitious and grindy, alot of the planets and animals are very samey but the game is very relaxing to me. It's something I can play and go "Ooh, shiny!" and fly over to things constantly and get lost exploring. It's nice! I got back to Gold in League of Legends! It's really obnoxious how people from my old Heroes streams keep coming in, seeing me playing league, and flipping out "Hurr omg you quit HOTS for LOL? UNFOLLOWED!" Lmao. I won't even be touching mobas at all in the coming weeks when my daughter Rose is born. So enjoy them while they last (Or rejoice because they'll be leaving?) Up to you. We got the babies crib assembled, got a changing table, car seat, stroller etc, pretty much got all the stuff we need, got our overnight hospital bag packed so whenever shes born we'll be ready! Super exciting, only like 28 days till her due date now! Expect lots of cute pictures and info about her when she gets here! :) The new Deus Ex game comes out in a couple weeks. I'm on the fence about it, because I impulse bought NMS and am kinda broke now, but LOVE the deus ex games. Another thing is that the minimum reccomended video card is the one I have, and I've had experiences in the past with the minimum barely running the game at all, so i'm scared to buy it and have it run like crap..Though steam refunds alleviate that thankfully. So we'll see. Hopefully some kind soul will donate the game to me so I can use the 60$ to buy rose lots of toys and diapers, haha. <3 Thanks for reading, if anyone does. Hope you are well! But why!? Okay. I know this is a big shock to a lot of people. I got into Heroes of the Storm in the first weeks of its technical alpha. In that time, I accumulated over 5,000 games played. At an average of 20 minutes each, that's 100,000 minutes, or 1,666+ hours. That's the most time I've ever sunk into a video game (Mind you that isn't including all the queue times, drafts, etc! Add an extra 5 mins on to every game for that!)
Before I got into streaming, I never stuck to any single game for long. I would log in to League of Legends, play a game or two and quit. I'd go play terraria for a couple hours after that. Then I'd watch an anime, then play some other game then sleep. I never was able to bring myself to sit and play a single game for 8 hours at a time, no matter how much I enjoyed a game. Heroes of the Storm was different, though. I found myself playing it because Abathur was such a unique hero archetype that didn't exist in any other moba. I could play him all day and never tire of it. Even then though, before I streamed, I would maybe play 5-6 hours at a time. Then I got into streaming. This pushed me to play it 8-12 hours a day, 7 days a week, to entertain a growing audience. It was exciting. But after a period of time, I realized I wasn't really enjoying the game anymore. Not as much, anyway. Little things began to irritate me, I found myself getting salty quicker and quicker, I'd lash out. It got to a point I literally woke up dreading having to hit the Play button. It was dragging me back into my clinical depression and making me miserable. Each time I'd stream something else, just for enjoyment, was a way to cope with that stress. But every single time I'd play anything else, I was always hammered with "Wtf dude, play HOTS! Why aren't you playing Abathur? Unfollowed!" Just stressing me even worse to go back to a game I no longer enjoyed. Well, after climbing to Grand Master and then immediately losing roughly 10 straight games and tanking back to Diamond 1, something snapped in me. I literally couldn't do it anymore. Sure, I would hold 100~ view count playing Heroes of the Storm, but I was finding myself with more unfollows than follows anymore. Donations were next to non-existant, and I was only feeling glum when playing it. Not only that, but my daughter will be here in a matter of weeks and I won't have the time to commit to playing mobas. So I figured, what's the point? I would rather stream with 20-40 viewers playing games I truly have fun playing, which leads to an overall better stream experience for my subscribers and new people who stumble in. I feel that if I do what makes me happy, everyone else will be happy too. I'm sorry if you decide to unfollow me and leave because I'm not playing Heroes of the Storm anymore, but honestly, I really only care about those who care about ME. Not the game. The people who are friends and like family, who come to each and every stream and make jokes and tease and have fun regardless of what I play. They are who matter, and they are who I'm going to continue to work hard to make happy. And I hope you're one of those people. Love you lots. - Abathur. |
John M
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September 2016
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